People say not to hear to depressing music, but what if that's the only coping mechanism that I had? Because I thought at least there are people like me, without having me to tell people my stories. You know, one way communication. I mostly listen to NF. Because in my opinion, his musics are the fair amount of stories about mental illnesses and the same time, motivating.
He is a religious (Christian) rapper. But he ain't saying no Jesus in his songs. So I feel comfortable when I'm listening to his songs.
What would I do without music? That's the only escape that I'm still holding on. My only live that's not fading away. My writings are fading away, my drawing talent gone just like that. My reading are also fading away. It is music that has been my only escape. I mean, it's not 100% reason that I'm still living. I'm solely living because I'm a Muslim. A not very practical one besides praying and fasting.
People say music is not good. Religious people say that. I'm sorry I'm a hypocrite. I'm not a very good Muslim well at least I don't kill myself (yet). Not that I'm planning to do that. I'll only go to hell if i ever do that. Lol. I'm not gonna sacrifice my hereafter just because this world is a living hell, that's stupid right?
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