Dapur

Kadang2 aku terfikir,

Hidup matiku kerana dapur,

Kerana makanan,

Kerana mak bapak.

Pernah tak sekali aku hidup untuk diri sendiri?

Kerana Allah tu mmg kena lah kan.

Tapi in case of Human,

Pernah tak aku hidup untuk diri sendiri?

Let It Go, but only not yet.

Idk,

People say not to hear to depressing music, but what if that's the only coping mechanism that I had? Because I thought at least there are people like me, without having me to tell people my stories. You know, one way communication. I mostly listen to NF. Because in my opinion, his musics are the fair amount of stories about mental illnesses and the same time, motivating.

He is a religious (Christian) rapper. But he ain't saying no Jesus in his songs. So I feel comfortable when I'm listening to his songs. 

What would I do without music? That's the only escape that I'm still holding on. My only live that's not fading away. My writings are fading away, my drawing talent gone just like that. My reading are also fading away. It is music that has been my only escape. I mean, it's not 100% reason that I'm still living. I'm solely living because I'm a Muslim. A not very practical one besides praying and fasting.

People say music is not good. Religious people say that. I'm sorry I'm a hypocrite. I'm not a very good Muslim well at least I don't kill myself (yet). Not that I'm planning to do that. I'll only go to hell if i ever do that. Lol. I'm not gonna sacrifice my hereafter just because this world is a living hell, that's stupid right? 

HEEEEEE

 HEEEEEEE

Saya happy

sebab hari ni dapat guna meja baru, levitator laptop baru, ada rak kecik baju, dan keyboard baru.

Bedroom makeover.

Setelah sekian lamanya.

buat entry ni pun sebab nak test keyboard.

HEEEEEEE

Happy!

Lepastu, buku saya dah 10.3k views, yeayyyyyyyyy.

Tapi, hari ni hari yg sibuk sikit sebenarnya.

Pagi tadi keluar dgn abah, karang jap gi nak keluar gi klinik (ytjt), hehe dah lama tak gi klinik sebab masalah sendiri. Hmm... lepas tu malam kang nak tasmik dgn ain, lepas tu ada rehearsal program sabtu nanti, last skali ada movie date, wuhuuuu. Sabtu tu, Alhamdulillah, peserta lebih banyak la drpd dulu, drpd program 1.

Wahhh, tapi saya happy. Heeeeee.

P/S : ada jugak orang baca blog saya ni kan? ingatkan tak ada, hahaha. Hmmm.

Ok bye!